Hold Your Breath

This journey I took with Kelly Rae Roberts in Spirit Wings was more than about making art. It become a time of self discovery, in my joy, of making art that speaks to you. I made 6 beautiful angels that have such great meaning, joy and love for anyone who sees them. Each angel carries it’s own message of truth, courage, trust, sacred ordinariness, belonging and heart whispers. The journey in creating these angels were more than just paint and paper, the journey was about listening to your heart and finding your truth.  They are about sharing some of life’s lessons that help you grow into the tender, loving deserving soul that you are.

On a practical note, I got excited about making faces. Each time I created the face of my angel my art got a life of its own. The pleasure of seeing her face was truly heartwarming. This pleasure drew me into making more faces so I joined another artist group ‘Let’s face it 2016’ with Kara Bullock.

In this course of ‘Let’s face it 2016’ I have been learning a lot about the technical side to shading and how to draw eyes, noses, lips etc. The ‘hold your breath’ type of art making that can put you off making your art.

What I mean by ‘hold your breath’ is that the hold you have on your art is so tight and rigid it becomes too much about perfection. I prefer perfectly, imperfect pieces of art because that is how I see the world around me.

To get a grip on perfection steals away the magical moments of just being. I like to create as a free playful soul that has no bounds and limitless potential. However, the lessons I am learning, using the ‘hold your breath’ art techniques, only adds to the dimension of my very own art groove.

Finding my groove is why I am here, that is my journey, that is my lesson this is my groove.

 

Hello groove!

Melanie M

Dirty Little Secret

I changed my blog name  to ‘Finding My Groove’ because my dirty little secret was out. I originally called my blog ‘Having an Affair’ because this making art was my dirty little secret. I didn’t want anyone knowing, I felt like an imposter and didn’t think my art was worthy. Now, all that doesn’t matter, it still niggles me, but my heart is enjoying creating and sharing so much, the niggles are ignored, most of the time.

Plus my tribe are liking it too, so that makes my heart proud. Thank you.

Here is a time lapse of me painting this girls hair (scroll down to see her complete). I have been enjoying watching other time lapse videos so decided to make my own until my battery ran out. I loved watching this and I think you will too.

This peaceful beauty is my angel of trust.

Mantra

May you embrace the love and heart of your beautiful messy soul and always, always remember to Trust your wings.

Melanie M

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First Time

  It has been quite an exciting weekend with the opening of an exhibition at our local museum and I have entered a piece. Nervous excitement is surrounding it yet I don’t feel anxious. I thought I would because I feel like an imposter, that dreaded imposter syndrome that we all have at times.  I dearly hope it sells, I would hate to have to rock up there and pick it up at the end of the exhibition. Hope, Courage and Belief is my mantra at the moment.

My lovely partner also put a piece of his own photography into the exhibition and it sold on the opening night. I am very proud of him and so glad he has sold it.

Hello hope

Hello Courage

Hello Belief

Happy Sunday everyone

Melanie M

 

What really!

2015-08-30 20.13.51I got hit with a ‘curve ball’ today. It was tough, it rocked me, left me feeling sad, deflated and hurt. My first thought was why did I start pursuing this dream to tell my story and at the same time making mixed media artworks, I am not worthy, it will never become anything and I am totally worthless. These are all the words I was beating myself up with, I would never speak to a friend like this. All because I made a mistake!

In my drive home from work I was trying to bring myself back to reality, I searched my brain for something that I had read in my book ‘Simple Abundance’, to help me to recover from this hurt and my need to feel worthless. (I have written about this book here in another time of need). This book is what it says it is, ‘A Day Book of Comfort and Joy’. I pick it up most days and always read a chapter that I am absolutely ready for. It is much like a soulful kiss on the cheek, that hits you right when you need it, with the exact kiss you need. This time my lesson was to find my blessing in everything – your dirty kitchen floor, your bank balance etc. I thought whatever, there is no blessing in this mess. As I read on, I discovered a little treasure that helped me believe,

‘if you find your blessing in everything then the universe will bless you’.

Wow, that was just what I needed.

I also realised that everything that is happening in this moment, is part of a much bigger picture. Don’t try and understand it, lean into it and find your blessings.

Keep dreaming, find your blessing even on your dark days and dance like you always have.

Make someone happy today, the world needs more happy.

Melanie M

Dear Knees

Dear Knees

You have suffered a life so that I could gain a longer one. I didn’t know when they wereknees trying to heal me that you would suffer so terribly. I don’t think I would have changed that, if I had known, saying goodbye forever wasn’t an option.

I am sorry that you are broken. It would have been a better time if I had lost that 20 kilos a few years earlier. That time was hard for me and I wasn’t thinking about how I would hurt you.

I am sorry that I didn’t wear more supportive shoes, that would keep you out of harms way. I love walking and would run when I was younger. If I had known I would have made it different for you.

I am sorry that I didn’t tell anyone about you, when I had that car accident and you smashed into the glove box so hard, you cracked it. I didn’t want anyone to find anything wrong with me because I didn’t think I was worth it.

Thank you for being there for me and now as it has become really hard for you to get me around, you just do it. I feel your reluctance to move in the morning and I thank you for keeping me going. Thank you for allowing this year to be so much easier and allowing me to walk more. Thank you for helping me keep up with Fern. Our goal is to get us both through our trip to the UK before we say goodbye.

You have served me well even when I have let you down.  I promise I will continue to massage you each day, so we can spend this time together with some blessings to get us through the day.

Love you Always and Forever

Melanie M

Secret

My secret:

2015-07-08 10.19.51Learning to trust me
Listen to the whispers
Filling my heart with joy and love
Trust
Grateful, Humble
Simple Abundance
To trust
I am
My own happy

Trusting my whispers and listening, without the noise of what will others think, has led me towards making art and writing this blog.

Trust is changing my world.

Hello Trust, Hello Art, Hello Blog

This is me

I blog because I believe everyone has a story to share. It has become a way to help me share my new found love for mixed media art. I am hoping it will connect me to a tribe of like minded individuals. I love feeling connected. I 2014-01-19 14.16.59 HDRlove sharing. I love connecting. I love laughing. Basically I am a crazy connected happy individual who wants to find her tribe.

I will blog about my journey into mixed media art, the good, the bad and the ugly.  It all brings me joy, possibilities, impossibilities.

I will share my renovation stories the mess, the frustrations and the finales. I hate sanding, I love painting. I love my nest.

I will share my musings on life’s beautiful, messy and complicated stuff. The good, the bad and the ugly.

In 12 months time I hope to have found my tribe and we all give each other simple abundance. I love that word, break it up and you have A-bun-dance. Who doesn’t like to dance! I love to dance except my broken knees tell me otherwise.

Anyway, here’s to blogging, dancing and growing my tribe.

Melanie M

I Write Because….

2014-01-22 12.32.31I believe everyone has a story worth sharing and everyone has a writer living within them. Writing has become a journey of self discovery that brings me joy.  It helps me to clarify and find simplicity in the sometimes chaos of life.

I like it and I can.

Melanie M